dreams over tea

Hi guys! I just decided to move back my personal account to my original tumblr [otaku blog] since it’s becoming a pain for me to manage 2 accounts.

reasons are:

1. I’ve been neglecting my original tumblr blog

2. It’s really somewhat confusing

3. I’m getting lazy to manage two blogs at the same time.

so those where my reasons. But I won’t delete this blog until the end of march, it just won’t be active since this was the 2nd account.

so if you still want to follow me (on my other account) it will still be mizakiaya(.)tumblr(.)com  since this is now nyokinyako(.)tumblr(.)com

ja’ne~ 

rocknrollisbitching:

Oh, Hayao Miyazaki. You’re fucking awesome.

back when i was in 4th year highschool up to 2nd year college I was really chubby as In really CHUBBY!!! and it dawned to me i have to lose weight since it was making me depress so I started drinking slimming tea and cutting of eating junkfood and fastfood stuffs. that loose me a lot of weight also the shit load of stress took it’s tol into my body. but it didn’t stop me there, even when people where asking and saying “how did you lose weight” or “wow, you’ve gone skinnier” didn’t bring me any self satisfaction. I pushed my self to go more skinnier when my bandmates started calling me “anorexic” or people around me will say “your not fat! you’re really skinny” didn’t stop me to lose more weight. 

not until last month when i started eating so much again. i was like “oh forget it! i’ll just drink slimming tea tonight” and started eating junkfoods and oily stuffs again. 

now it dawned to me when a photographer friend was asking me to cosplay a certain character for a photoshoot that I was gaining weight. and my skinny face that I worked so hard to gain is starting to fade. I realize “I HAVE TO STOP THIS UNHEALTHY DIET!!” but now i find my self back to pace 1 when dieting and self control is very difficult. specially when people around you are bunch of fucktards that keeps you away of your diet!!! I know go back to that powerful slimming tea that I hate and not eating dinner. I also started eating more veggies and fruits and started drinking more water. 

I hope by next month I’m back to my skinny self. [not the model skinny] but my normal built. THIS IS A FIGHT!!!!

“Mom, Dad, you don’t have to work anymore. Relax. I can support you now. Thank you for everything that you’ve done for me.”