back when i was in 4th year highschool up to 2nd year college I was really chubby as In really CHUBBY!!! and it dawned to me i have to lose weight since it was making me depress so I started drinking slimming tea and cutting of eating junkfood and fastfood stuffs. that loose me a lot of weight also the shit load of stress took it’s tol into my body. but it didn’t stop me there, even when people where asking and saying “how did you lose weight” or “wow, you’ve gone skinnier” didn’t bring me any self satisfaction. I pushed my self to go more skinnier when my bandmates started calling me “anorexic” or people around me will say “your not fat! you’re really skinny” didn’t stop me to lose more weight.
not until last month when i started eating so much again. i was like “oh forget it! i’ll just drink slimming tea tonight” and started eating junkfoods and oily stuffs again.
now it dawned to me when a photographer friend was asking me to cosplay a certain character for a photoshoot that I was gaining weight. and my skinny face that I worked so hard to gain is starting to fade. I realize “I HAVE TO STOP THIS UNHEALTHY DIET!!” but now i find my self back to pace 1 when dieting and self control is very difficult. specially when people around you are bunch of fucktards that keeps you away of your diet!!! I know go back to that powerful slimming tea that I hate and not eating dinner. I also started eating more veggies and fruits and started drinking more water.
I hope by next month I’m back to my skinny self. [not the model skinny] but my normal built. THIS IS A FIGHT!!!!
i just lose my fone yesterday when I was going home. It might have slipped from my pockets. What I’m actually sad about is not the phone it self but the loads of pictures and memories stored in them. Also mt ultra cute tiger and bunny cellphone charm that my best friend got me for christmass. Funny thing is that earlier that day me and my best friend where taking if what if a snatcher snatched my cellphone from me I was like hell no!! I’m gonna chase him just to get my cellphone charms, since I’m already planning to get a new fone. I’m just really afraid that the one whongot my fone will start using my pictures and pretend to be me, since it have EVERYTHING from Selcas to cosplay pictures. Damn! I also hope mom will get me the fone that I really want. For not I shall have to deal of not having a fone for a while. Oh well gotta mary my dslr for the moment.
That’s how I sum up my VALENTINES DAY! I should have just celebrated it by getting snake bite piercing!